Which is what I have known ever since I was a child. I have obesity.
If you look at me now you probably would not realize I have obesity. I was once over 400 pounds. I lost over 225 pounds and now have kept off over 200 for well over four years.
I workout for over two hours a day. I eat “cleaner” than 99% of the people you know. I have not put any artificial ingredients in my body for over a year and have less than 15% body fat.
But I have obesity. I will always have obesity.
When I was a kid I had obesity. I would eat more than anyone else in my house. People like to blame the disease on the parents, but I honestly can say my parents had nothing to do with my obesity. They always had fruits and vegetables in the house. They were never over 200 pounds growing up. They would limit my portions numerous times and they were very supportive with me being active.
None of it mattered. My obesity was in its beginning stages.
When I was 12 I was five foot one and 221 pounds. The doctor told me there was a simple solution to cure obesity…
“Eat less fattie!”
I felt so stupid. Of course! All I had to do was eat less! Little did I know, people who do not have obesity think that is always the answer. Hell, we could solve all of the addictions that was…
Alcoholic- Stop Drinking!
Gambler- Stop Gambling!
Abuser- Stop Abusing!
What a wonderful world this would be!
But when I was 14 I created my first diet and lost over 50 pounds. I was not overweight anymore. I was pretty knowledgeable with nutrition as well for a kid in the 90’s. I thought my obesity was cured!
That is until I moved out and went to college. Although I knew how to lose weight, my obesity came back hard. I gained back all the weight and then some. I knew how to lose weight and promised myself I would do it tomorrow. Tomorrow for a food addict with obesity is non existent.
I got up to 300 pounds. I went to another doctor who told me to eat less once again for my obesity. I like to think of myself as an educated person. I know that eating less would help me lose weight. But I wanted to cure my obesity. I did not wan to be part of the epidemic.
The doctor told me if I would take a “healthy” diet pill I could cure my obesity. Hey, whatever it takes! So I ate less and took Stacker 2 pills. Not the pills you see now, the ones with the “good stuff” in them. I lost close to 100 pounds. I was not “fat” anymore. I would look at other overweight people and think “I do not have obesity anymore!” and think that I solved the puzzle.
With obesity, you never solve the puzzle. You are just lucky a piece fits.
I met my wife in 2000. I was close to 200 pounds and no where near obese. She did now know I had obesity. She just thought I had a hearty appetite when we went out to eat a lot. When I would finish her left overs. When I would never have left overs.
Then she saw me over 400 pounds. She saw my obesity at its worst.
People have it wrong though. People think that those who have obesity are lazy. That is so untrue. People with obesity are not lazy. The can be extremely motivated and highly educated. I like to think that I am.
People think that those with obesity are unhealthy. That is not true either. There are those who have obesity who are healthy. I am very healthy now. But my obesity has not taken over like it has for years.
My wife saw me lose the 225 pounds. I am under 200 pounds now. I am healthy.
I have obesity.
I am going to live the rest of my life with obesity. I preach to many that you can live a healthy life with obesity. Obesity has been hard, but I will never deny that I do not have obesity. It is a disease that has no cure.
But I fight like hell every day to live with it.