I do not have an iPod Workout Mix. I have not had one in a while.
I use Pandora. Pandora is great. I just say “I like Wham” and they say “Well then, you must also like Culture Club, Oingo Boingo and Michael Jackson!” Then sometimes you say “I like Maroon 5” and they say “Well then you would love Incubus”.
Sometimes it works out well. I have heard a lot of songs that I would not have otherwise. Then there are times when all I hear is seventeen versions of Telephone by Lady Gaga or Call Me Maybe. This is craaaazzzzyyyyy!
Today I listened to the “Today’s Hits” station. There was a little Bruno Marx and some Katy Perry*.
*Actually, there was a lot of Katy Perry.Who would have known that kissing a girl would get her so many hits!
Then Justin Bieber came on…..
My wife does not like Justin Bieber at all. I mean she REALLY does not like him. Maybe because he is arrogant or a pop star or no one knows how he became so mega famous, but she does not like him. I know this because when my son was very little I would sing the chorus of that “Baby” song and she would get very upset with me.
The song that came on today was “Never Say Never”. It was by Justin Bieber and Will Smith’s kid. I think it is from the New Karate Kid. I liked the old one, where Ralph Macchio was 45 in his role.
Anyway, I was just starting my workout and did not feel like changing the song. Plus, I could not since I used up my “six songs skipped in a hour” rule. So I listened to the song.
See I never thought that I could walk through fire.
I never thought that I could take the burn.
I never had the strength to take it higher,
Until I reached the point of no return.
And there’s just no turning back,
When your hearts under attack,
Gonna give everything I have,
It’s my destiny.
I will never say never! (I will fight)
I will fight till forever! (make it right)
Whenever you knock me down,
I will not stay on the ground.
I started to think…….
There are millions of weight loss blogs out there. Millions of success stories. Millions of people who have beaten the odds in life to succeed.
You know me now, but you did not know me years ago. When I made excuses. When life sucked. When tomorrow was the scariest day because I did not think it would come, and if it did it would not matter, because it would be today. When I sold myself short all the time. When nothing would go my way. When I did not think anything worthwhile was possible.
Food is my nemesis. I have to have it, yet I know that I am always 12 Twinkies away from destruction. I get it. Yet, does it have to stop me?
No, and that is what I had to realize. Everyone has weaknesses. Mine are exposed through large elastic pants and usage of handicap restrooms.
When I lost weight, my pants got smaller. I was more mobile. The biggest thing was I had a voice. One that people started to listen to.
People will judge you regardless. When you are fat, you are lazy. I do not agree with it, I think it is the dumbest thing in the world, but….perception is reality. When you are fat, you are dumb. That makes no sense, but normal people can not understand why you just can not eat less.
Why do you have to eat so much?
Can’t you just say no?
Just eat less!
It always makes sense on paper. So much different when your life revolves around food.
With all of that, I did lose weight. A lot. Enough for people to listen to me. Enough for my true talents to shine. Enough for me to believe in myself.
When I write, I do not talk about how to lose weight, or the best way, or tips, because I know it will not help. It did not help me. There are millions of other blogs that will tell you what to eat, when to work out, and calorie counting.
Before any of that, and the whole premise of my blog, is that you really should never say never. It is so easy to judge me now, but you have no idea. How many times I did not ask for a raise because of my weight or how many times I would get ridiculed by my boss and take it.
When I heard the song, I started to cry. Nothing crazy, but a couple of tears came down. I sweat a lot during workouts, so it really was not noticeable.
Weight loss has given me a voice. A voice to say anything is possible, and who can doubt me. I voice to say that you can do this own your own, and who will dispute me.
A couple of years back I got a really nice letter from a woman thanking me for my blog. I remember one line from her email….
“I do not have an issue with food (I am around 110 pounds and have been most of my life!) but after reading your blog, I know that dreams can come true if you work hard.”
So what does the future hold for me? Not sure.
I know that I will never say never.