I never signed up for a C-2-3.76k
I never signed up for the “68 push-up challenge”
I also never settled to lose 100 pounds
Those are the whole reasons I lost 200 pounds.
When I lost my first 100 pounds, everyone was so excited! My Weight Watchers gave me a certificate, and my wife kept on gushing.
She was thrilled.
Losing 100 pounds did not matter to me at all.
It was not my goal.
At 320 pounds, I felt great. I was able to shop at “normal” clothing stores, although at the largest sizes. I was not out of breath, and I could put my seat belt on in the car.
Honestly though, I was scared.
Scared because losing 100 pounds was incredibly easy for me. I lowered my calorie intake and worked out.
Each week I would lose 6-12 pounds like nothing. I lost 100 pounds in some sort of crazy amount of time, about 13 weeks.
Losing 200 pounds changed my life!
I have talked about the foods I eat, but losing 200 pounds takes much more than that.
It takes being humble and love for yourself.
I realized I would never be stronger than food! I would never be able to “just” eat one cupcake, or have “a” cheat day, or “for one day” eat what I wanted to on vacation.
I was different.
I wanted to think I was stronger than the processed food I ate. I could beat it!
I saw so many others just eat one piece of pizza. My wife could have one sandwich.
Why couldn’t I?
Because I am different.
I changed the way I looked at food. This is a 365 day journey. I can not slip up…..no, I do not want to slip up.
I have always had self confidence, but more than ever, I truly love myself.
I love the fact that I am able to deal with my food issues and work through them. I am proud that I can have “unhealthy” foods in the house and stay away from them. I am proud that I can find time to work out, and realize that is not an option.
It does not make me better than you, or stronger than you. I just realize I will not be around long if I think I can control it!
A couple of days ago I finally did something I have wanted to do for a very long time. Although my wife has never been upset with me for being over 400 pounds, and my family always loved me for me, I have always been upset with myself.
I finally forgave myself.
I forgave myself for getting over 400 pounds!
I forgave myself for being selfish. I know that I will never be able to enjoy one burger, or eat birthday cake. It is a sacrifice I am willing to take.
I will never forget the past. I have been overweight my whole life. I will always be that 420 pound guy in a 200 pound shell.
So after sixteen months of my new lifestyle I forgave myself for the past.
Now I can look to the future!